Pagodpod, Ilocos Norte and its exotic locales eased off some pain, made me a little stronger but the bitterness is still there, I'm still bothered of the things they've done to me, no one should be put through this.. I mean no one..(read my previous entry) No one deserves no matter how evil they are should experience this.. To quote a song from Incubus' Love Hurts(from the Album Light Grenades):

I'm fettered and abused
I stand naked and accused
Should I surface this one man submarine?

I dont' know if both of them can sleep at night or morning, or be proud of what they've done, on Blaine's(my old 'friend') part I don't know where he gets the gutts to go to the office where almost everybody wants to chop his head off and tear his testicles and feed it to the dogs.. I don't know why Empress still looks at me whenever I pass by her. I admit after all that she said to me(through text msg and through a friend, after all those bad things, I may have despised her a little bit but I still lover her.. How stupid of me.. Things could have been different if that idiot Blaine didn't get involved or it wouldn't hurt this much..

Dammit I still love her after all those things.. Though I don't see the reason why I should push through, I don't see the reason why do I have to keep up to all this craziness.. I don't know if this is normal, all I know is up to now my feelings are real..

Empress Marie Louise Pareja I still love you..