Queenie, what the heck she knows it already.. Empress is a ticking timebomb, not because of her physical features but the way she gets along with me.. A few weeks ago we're "hitting it off", getting to know each other better, sharing little bits of information about ourselves.. Heck I even told her I like her because she's smart, nice and intelligent. If she only knew the other facets of how I like her, sense of humor, her enigmatic persona, the way she acts with grace and dignity and all those stuff, she's fun to be with and most of all I like the way she smiles..

All that changed because of one man, my friend Blaine, Blaine in our company was known to be very very close to girls, if Lhaine has a blog she'll document everything that they do heck even Shine, OJ, even Maru I think and the list goes on.. They became very close that one day, one freakin day changed everything.. Before that I can't even talk to her without him popping out of nowhere and getting her attention, that sometimes pissed me off and my good friend "Grand Pa" Arn Arn.. I was frank with my feelings to my friends because thats how I am.. He knows that I have plans to court her but how can I do it, when he pops out of nowhere and bother our moment.. And yeah they went to church together last week, he accompanied him in her "lipat apartment" sessions last Friday..  Everything was destroyed because of him.. WAAAAAAAAAAH!!! Though when I attempted talking to her on Sunday he was the one who told her that she needs to talk to me, to sort things out, which followed a few minutes of uncomfortable silence..

As if we're gonna have a moment after what has happened this past few days, she was kinda cold to me, maybe there was something that I said, which I admit I think it was a bomber, I told her that there are things that I cannot say freely, and I have issues.. Suddenly all I have is the sudden gust of coldness from her, she doesnt smile at me anymore, she wasn't that much of a joker when I'm with her and Blaine.. I know she's not that because when I was the one acted like that, she was so sorry and I don't know, weird right? A good example of her coldness was she doesn't text me anymore, she doesn't  even greeted me during our shift if I'm not gonna be the one saying "hi" sometimes she's the one iniating the "hi" part and heck she even told me when I attempted to say sorry(with eyes looking at a very blank direction) NO JM ITS FINE, IM FINE.. WTF?!?

We met because of a joke, until we got to know each other a little, if she thinks my feelings for her was a joke then heck I'm suffering because of sudden shrugs, sudden coldness, I tried talking to her but the guy will pop out of nowhere and ruin things.. I will confront Blaine later and ask him if they're a couple already or what.. I just can't find the right words on how to say that sometimes I need more time or a little time to be with her and if he's courting her also at least I know, what will I do..

PS: Nanie smiled back at me when she saw frowning..  Well she's part of my past now..