How do we define a hero? Some might define hero as the one who defends the lives of the innocent, uphold truth and justice. Some define hero as the one who died saving others, while others define a hero as the one who is willing to sacrifice everything to the good of others, a man or a woman who has the gutts and the will to defy the authority, defend the weak, retrieve our independence, and other heros who brought Pride and Glory to our country.. In our history we have lots of heroes Mactan Chieftain Lapu Lapu, The man who led the longest running revolution in Phillipine History Francisco Dagohoy, The National Hero and Calamba's Treasure Jose Protacio Rizal, Andres Bonifacio together with his Freedom Fighters known as the Katipuneros, Sublime Paralytic and one of the first Filipino spy Apolinario Mabini, Westpoint Graduate and WW2 hero Vicente Lim, our National Artists Levi Celerio, Lucio San Pedro among others, Senator Ninoy Aquino, the man who defied dictator Ferdinand Marcos during his reign as President of the country, and now Corazon Aquino, the woman who brought democracy right in our arms..

August 1, 2009 will always be remembered in Philippine History.. August 1, 2009 we will always be remember the life of Corazon Cojuangco Aquino.. Corazon Aquino is a simple woman, a mother, a wife to the great Senator Ninoy, she is one of the women at that time who had to endure the hardships, the tribulations during Martial Law rule, we all know that Ninoy was a political prisoner back in the days of Marcos, she had to endure the years without his husband's embrace, during their last years together they shared awesome memories in the States only to be taken away in August 21, 1983 as an assains bullet took the life of his husband Ninoy..

She came back in the Philippines a grieveing wife, and garnered the symphaty of the whole nation, this is the moment where our ancestors, our parents, those who are older than us are awakened by Marcos' oppression.. During the wake Cory was a picture of strenght as the whole nation rallied behind her and the opposition in years leading to People Power 1, with her 'power' and help she brought back democracy to the country, released our political prisoners, and for once we did something that I think cannot be done by other nations, to unite, to care not only for ourselves and others.. 

During her Presidency, eventhough it was haunted by coup attempts she was able to weather the storm, and finish her reign and of course re-establishing what was lost during the Marcos Era democracy..

After her term as President, she was still seen active in various activities and charities, her presence in People Power 2 was crucial, as her battlecry for the ouster of Joseph Estrada contributed to the 'demise' of the Estrada regime(though Estrada didn't resign, what happened is a POWER GRAB by POWER MONGREL Gloria Macapagal Arroyo).. A few years later she wasn't afraid of doing the '180' as she was seen together with opposition senators even with Estrada as they protest GMA's cheating the election, the ZTE scandal and other corrupt things our 'PRESIDENT' did in the last few years, she was even agains the CON ASS, overall she was a woman of principle, HECK she even said joining People Power 2 is something she regretted doing, if she sees something wrong she's not afraid to show herself in public, and tell the people what she believe that will obstruct demcracy..

Now even after the Estrada Ouster, we see people taking advantage of our freedom, as some of our leaders take money out of our pockets and enjoy the amenities we also deserve, some of us would rather not have say on the issues that  rattled the very foundation of our constitution, some would rather say they are not proud of our heritage and our race..

Tita Cory, you're an extraordinary woman, thank you for everything that youv'e done in our country, our sovereignity.. We will always remember you and I swear that I will tell you're story to my future kids.. You truly are a hero..

Good day.. Sorry for not updating my blog for weeks or rather I think for a month or so..

For some reason if some UNC alumni and students and even the Tar Heels basketball team happened to open this blog, I would like to extend my congratulations to you and its fans for winning the 2009 National Championship, it was a wise decision for Tyler Hansbrough and Ty Lawson to stay in school and win one for the Blue and White..

The playoffs just started yesterday and of course I'm happy that the Chicago Bulls made it this year with the help of the rise of play of Joackim Noah, Tyrus Thomas and the newcomers Brad Miller(his 2nd tour of duty with the Bulls) and John Salmons, they managed to finish 41-41 good enough to land a spot a 7th spot in the East, Derrick Rose also was a big factor in the Bulls turn around, hands down he will be the run away winner for the Rookie of the Year plum..

Rose also ignited the KG(who will be out for the rest of the postseason) less Celtics for 36 points 11 assists and 4 rebounds enroute to a 105-103 Game 1 upset victory over the Defending Champs at the TD Banknorth Gardens.. Rose got some help with Tyrus Thomas who recorded 16  pts and Joackim Noah for 11pts and 17 caroms.. Paul Pierce led the Celts with 25 points..  Game 2 will be tomorrow, hope the Bulls pull off another stunning victory..

Now we talk about the hapless and everybody's favorite team, The PISTONS, or should I say everybody just ditch them.. I wonder if some of its loyal 'fans' here in the country are still loyal to them esp the guy who is claiming that the Pistons have all the right to claim that it built its own dynasty by appearing in 6 straight conference finals since 2003, hey dude its not a dynasty when you don't win the rings.. The Pistons on that 6 straight appearnce compiled a win loss record of 2-4 appearing in the Finals twice winning the 2004 Finals over the Los Angeles Lakers, and in 2005 succumbing to the San Antonio Spurs.. Over the years after 2005 they were the victims of the Miami Heat, the Cleveland Cavaliers and the Boston Celtics.. This season, with a new coach and a somewhat changed line up the Pistons started with a new vigor, they traded Chauncey Billups(the 04 Finals MVP) for the Denver Nuggets perrenial scorer Allen Iverson.. From there they weren't the same team that appeard on all those Conference Championship games..

The Pistons lost the discipline in their offense, often the ball started with Iverson and ended at the hands of Iverson, the ball movement wasn't there anymore, heck even the defensive intensity wasn't there.. To add insult to injury with all due respect to Rodney Stuckey, the Stuckey project may have turned out to be a bust as he had difficulty with or without Iverson to turn this franchise around to all the tough offensive stretches, other than that Iverson went down during the season and soon the once mighty 'dynasty' came crashing down.. They managed to pull themselves together and compiled a 39-43 record, good enough to face Lebron James Cavaliers(yes I won't say they are the Cleveland Cavaliers, because Lebron is the team all by himself), who blew the wind out of them in Game 1..

So now that the Pistons are as pathetic as the Atlanta Hawks once was, so Pistons 'fans' stand up or oh crap where are they the real ones are left, where are the others.. Oh crap they're at the <insert ideal winning team here> bandwagon now..

Till next time..

I bought a 300 peso ticket meaning I have to be in the back, just to witness this historic moment.. I actually have a budget to score the Php 1,300 tickets but then again  I have to accompany a friend who was planning to buy the Php 300 but unfortunately he wasn't able to find a swap for a Saturday off, hence I'm in crappy place but that didn't stop me from enjoying the event..

The crowd is made up of professionals, students, some tambays, students, call centre agents, parents with their kids and of course a throng of celebrities like Ehra Madrigal, Wendell Ramos, Jericho Rosales, Joan Quintas, Buhawi of PNE, Karel Marquez, Anne Curtis, Kat Alano among others..

The rock show started between 815 or 830, the Heads pumped up the crowd with the song 'Magasin', which ironically the same song that made me attached to the band, that was around 1995, I was a graduating elementary student.. Hard to believe that it still sounded good after 14 years.. The crowd of course sang along through the stanzas and of course the chorus..

Being there among the crowd who is some older than I am made me travel in time, the time when I was in highschool where the Heads are in their prime and making records after records and hits after hits.. One memorable portion of the show was when Eli Buendia dedicated part of the show as tribute to their late friend Francis Magalona who died a day before the show(he was suppose to guest and sing the rap part of Super Proxy).. And oh the crowd went nuts when Eli uttered "Tang Ina" during Pare Ko..

Their supposedly last song Ang Huling El Bimbo was one of the best performance I've seen, and yes I've seen a lot of bands play but this tops them all.. Eli burning a replica of a piano remiscent of their Sticker Happy album.. After that the people thought the show was over, the heads came back and sang 3 more songs to the delight of the crowd..

All in all it was a great ending to one of the Greatest Band in OPM HIstory.. Thanks for the Memories Eraserheads..

Pagodpod, Ilocos Norte and its exotic locales eased off some pain, made me a little stronger but the bitterness is still there, I'm still bothered of the things they've done to me, no one should be put through this.. I mean no one..(read my previous entry) No one deserves no matter how evil they are should experience this.. To quote a song from Incubus' Love Hurts(from the Album Light Grenades):

I'm fettered and abused
I stand naked and accused
Should I surface this one man submarine?

I dont' know if both of them can sleep at night or morning, or be proud of what they've done, on Blaine's(my old 'friend') part I don't know where he gets the gutts to go to the office where almost everybody wants to chop his head off and tear his testicles and feed it to the dogs.. I don't know why Empress still looks at me whenever I pass by her. I admit after all that she said to me(through text msg and through a friend, after all those bad things, I may have despised her a little bit but I still lover her.. How stupid of me.. Things could have been different if that idiot Blaine didn't get involved or it wouldn't hurt this much..

Dammit I still love her after all those things.. Though I don't see the reason why I should push through, I don't see the reason why do I have to keep up to all this craziness.. I don't know if this is normal, all I know is up to now my feelings are real..

Empress Marie Louise Pareja I still love you..

It was her that put me in the state of nervous breakdown all the month of February, it was him that put me in a downward spiral.. After what I thought a very decent Saint Valentine's Day, all was lost, my hope, my efforts, my sense to push forward.. It was Monday morning when Empress told me my friend Lemuel will be her neighbor, so I politely asked her if I can now her unit number, she told me its a secret then I joked that I'll go Lemuel's place and make harana to her, she was so pissed off after that.. I tried analyzing every possible scenarios in why she was furious at me after that joke, then I came up with one, why can't she tell me that I wasn't the man that she wants, the man she wants to be with..  Later I knew through a friend that she called me a stalker, she told my friend I was scary, i look like a guy who is drunk always, i talk in a high pitch(wtf?) and all the possible bullshit that could have broken a man, she even told my friend that she accepted my gifts(flowers and chocolate) during the Valentines so that I won't be humiliated(because someone tipped her of my suprise, much to my surprise also because the surprise that I was planning is known only to a select few who isn't really talking to her that much since she became close to my "friend").  I told my friend to tell her that to tell it to me straight in my face, a few minutes later in one of my drunken episodes she texted me to back off, she doesn't have to say it to my face, and all the negative bullshit.. I only replied I dare you to tell it straight to my face.. 

Maybe she's not worth it, eventhough I still love her, and yes I admit that, I'm that crazy and I have to end everything that has happened, close the book and leave.. If she can tell it sraight to my face then fine, at least I am a man that can accept pain.. For her accusations of me being a stalker, I don't know but if I am a stalker I should have followed her around, instead of being drunk last Monday I should be at her apartment, harrassing her.. If was a stalker I could have gotten her number and address during the times I was doing workforce duties a few months ago, if I was a stalker she wouldn't entertainmen me the past few weeks..  I don't know what to say, I don't know if you guys will believe me either.. Probably my one mistake is that when I make hatid to her in the CR and I suddenly felt the urge to pee also, so I peed at the men's bathroom and when I got out she got out also and opened the door(the other door that hides the bathroom to the call center floor) to her..

Blaine on the other hand, was a once a very good friend, until he betrayed me.. He never told me his intentions to her, its ok if he wants to court Empress to but  at least I have the right to know, he could have told me like a man and tell him may the best man win, some even told me that she could have respected the fact that he could have given space, since I was "making my move" out of respect.. I never even have enough time to tell her everything I wanted to say because he pops out of nowhere.. A few hours ago, Lemuel texted me that their 'MU' now, Empress can't commit yet while that "traitor" is willing to wait, Blaine never told me that, he was ilang to me and my friends, half of the office hates him because of what he did to me..  Forgive him? Yes, someday..  Friendship over..

Queenie, what the heck she knows it already.. Empress is a ticking timebomb, not because of her physical features but the way she gets along with me.. A few weeks ago we're "hitting it off", getting to know each other better, sharing little bits of information about ourselves.. Heck I even told her I like her because she's smart, nice and intelligent. If she only knew the other facets of how I like her, sense of humor, her enigmatic persona, the way she acts with grace and dignity and all those stuff, she's fun to be with and most of all I like the way she smiles..

All that changed because of one man, my friend Blaine, Blaine in our company was known to be very very close to girls, if Lhaine has a blog she'll document everything that they do heck even Shine, OJ, even Maru I think and the list goes on.. They became very close that one day, one freakin day changed everything.. Before that I can't even talk to her without him popping out of nowhere and getting her attention, that sometimes pissed me off and my good friend "Grand Pa" Arn Arn.. I was frank with my feelings to my friends because thats how I am.. He knows that I have plans to court her but how can I do it, when he pops out of nowhere and bother our moment.. And yeah they went to church together last week, he accompanied him in her "lipat apartment" sessions last Friday..  Everything was destroyed because of him.. WAAAAAAAAAAH!!! Though when I attempted talking to her on Sunday he was the one who told her that she needs to talk to me, to sort things out, which followed a few minutes of uncomfortable silence..

As if we're gonna have a moment after what has happened this past few days, she was kinda cold to me, maybe there was something that I said, which I admit I think it was a bomber, I told her that there are things that I cannot say freely, and I have issues.. Suddenly all I have is the sudden gust of coldness from her, she doesnt smile at me anymore, she wasn't that much of a joker when I'm with her and Blaine.. I know she's not that because when I was the one acted like that, she was so sorry and I don't know, weird right? A good example of her coldness was she doesn't text me anymore, she doesn't  even greeted me during our shift if I'm not gonna be the one saying "hi" sometimes she's the one iniating the "hi" part and heck she even told me when I attempted to say sorry(with eyes looking at a very blank direction) NO JM ITS FINE, IM FINE.. WTF?!?

We met because of a joke, until we got to know each other a little, if she thinks my feelings for her was a joke then heck I'm suffering because of sudden shrugs, sudden coldness, I tried talking to her but the guy will pop out of nowhere and ruin things.. I will confront Blaine later and ask him if they're a couple already or what.. I just can't find the right words on how to say that sometimes I need more time or a little time to be with her and if he's courting her also at least I know, what will I do..

PS: Nanie smiled back at me when she saw frowning..  Well she's part of my past now..

I won 3rd place in Solar Fantasy Football, I could have won first place if I activated the Dallas Cowboys Defense/Special Teams in my team, that week they sacked Eli Manning 8 times, had good return yards after a kick off, but no time for regrets, make smart analysis next season..

With that out of the way, all I wanted to say is that 2009 so far hasn't started good for me 2 lates but besides that everything is fine I think.. I'm back doing intern as a workforce monitor, which is fun though kinda though, you'll enjoy seeing new faces asking you something about your schedule, answering phone calls for people who are going to be late or absent packed with the lamest reason possible.. I might be back doing it in a week or 2.. 

Did I tell you I met someone new? She's nice, kinda mysterious, no issues so far(I think) but lets see what will happen in the next few weeks, I like her I admit that.. The good thing about it is I can be myself around her, telling lame jokes that at least makes her smile and definitely she's smarter than "Batgirl"(I call her Harley Quinn now).. And oh the news with Harley Quinn, everything has really really changed, at least in my stand point.. And with the new girl that I will hide under the pseudonym "Queenie", I think I found someone who will make me smile.. At least I have trusted "wingmen" to guide me.. They say "hi" for me, set me up with something and stuff like that, actually thats how we got started.. Because of some sick joke.. Hahaha.. Thank you Shaun and Blaine..

In a few days we'll be changing our shifts again, I'll bid goodbye to my 630pm-330am and say hello to my 730pm to 430pm shift.. A new supersivor and some new sort of team mates which is definitely familiar because most them are from the early shift also.. With the new schedule looming in the horizon, theres a new thing I wanted to try, since I admit I am a frustrated writer, I would like to try out for Marathon, our company's official news letter.. Do I have what it takes? I don't know.. But I won't know if I don't take the risk right?

Bart, Lhaine sorry if I have to defy you this time.. I have to do it really, after the Harley Quinn thingy, after botching the oppurtunities that I had, have to go after Queenie, hope you don't get mad.. Love you as a friend.. Peace out..

Happy Chinese New Year people!!! PLAY GUITAR HERO!!!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you guys, last week was the most tiring and exhausting week week I ever had, I had lots of overtimes, 2 lates because of oversleeping and traffic, the good thing about it is we got our advance which is now a little less than a thousand bucks now because I treated my cousins at Pizza Hut and me buying the BEST MOVIE OF 2008, The Dark Knight..

Overall Christmas was ok eventhough we all felt the financial crisis that has torn the world, I was kinda cheap this Christmas I wasn't able to buy expensive gifts(yes I did buy expensive gifts last year) to my niece and nephew, instead I buy cheap ones who are in good condition and one of them is a rare toy I purchased for a Php 150.. Christmas always reminds me of my childhood wearing all those new and fancy clothes going to our ninongs and ninangs, titos and titas getting all those money and toys, clothes it was fun, too bad we can't do that anymore because we're all grown up and heck we already have a job, 2 years ago was different my long lost Ninang Amor was present during my mother's wake that she gave me a thousand bucks for all those years we haven't seen each other.. Actually that was the first time we saw each other since I was a baby boy.. Most of all I miss my mother this Christmas..

New Year is coming and I haven't found a swap yet, so whatever happens I do hope I can enjoy whatever my New Year will be.. Most likely my first new year at the office which will definitely suck.. Last year we had a good drink, we had good food, too bad I might not experience it this year, either way we're not that complete this coming New Year's Eve because my Tito Willy and Tita Fe ain't gonna be here because they'll be coming back here in the country come April 09..

Oh yeah, I greeted her Merry Christmas.. She just glanced at me surprised at my greeting.. Things have changed..

Wish me luck, I applied for promotion as Workforce Monitor in our office, and I admit it was part ego that I applied to show her that I'm better off without her..  Either way wish me luck..

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year..

PS: Metro Manila Film Festival Movies? Well gone are the days when we get quality films not a CRAPFEST..

With a 91-90 lead over my opponent at week 15 of our Fantasy Football League, I'm back in the playoffs(regardless of whatever happens to DeAngelo Williams of Carolina on MNF)..  In Fantasy Basketball I'm finally having a very good season, I never had one in all my fantasy basketball games with exemption of the 2006 Champions League Invitational where I represented Solar Entertainment(the network that brought us Basketball TV, JackTV, ETC and Solar Sports)..

The past few weeks are rough, busy with work, though I'm not tired, the schedule I got is great, I can go full 8 hours without hassle(of course I need time offs which we call VTO in our office).. I dont get to see her again which is good, I still love her though, eventhough I know that she has issues that I don't even want to talk about(besides being hooked up with the Joker or Bry or whatever), those issues have turned me off, made me realize that maybe just maybe she's not worth my time, I didn't even bother giving her a birthday gift, didn't even bother greeting her in person during her birthday eventhough I saw her walking alone back then or was taking calls back then, her friends and I talk but I don't talk to her, man I've got issues..

Manny Pacquiao just beat the crap out off my another boxing hero Oscar Dela Hoya, now when he comes back he'll say he did for the country, blah blah blah, he did it for the people, blah blah blah and be the biggest a$$ in human civilization.. I have to give it to Pac though, but for me he's an a$$, now he plans for running the senate in 2010, if he continues to be a puppet of the current administration, he will only doom himself and his future.. When Pac lost all his glory and money do you actually believe that Mike Arroyo, Chavit Singson and the rest will come to his rescue? I don't think so.. If those guys are really into boxing not just for winning big time money in gambling, those guys should help one of our boxing heroes in the past who didn't screw up his life Luisito Espinosa the original Golden Boy..

Hopefully Brandon Vera(former UFC World Heavyweight Championship contender)  comes back to the octagon and makes his rise to be a contender again, if he wins a UFC title will he get the same attention, he's pinoy, he's proud of it, and he's not an a$$ unlike Pac..

I just realized that Jewel's foolish games is an excellent song..

Until then..